uh oh

That was a brain blip. At least I'm finished ranting :) 

my life and my future

My life was a parable so thanks to all for being involved! I'm going to turn over a new leaf and start anew today. 

new ageism

I adore gong therapy and acupuncture and kinesiology so I'm very new age. I rely on my horoscope and tarot every day! 

gm

blue moon

Where in the world is Carmen sandigo

what is it about me

That is so tricky to understand 

me

herself

Is it not a non anyone in no one's opinion. Who could that be about? 

thoughts

Today I was sleeping a lot because it was kinda a fatigue day ms wise. But good news is my ms hug symptoms (a kind of gripping ache around the chest) are finally lifting! Kinesiology is also working a charm with a few appointments remaining 

thoughts

A million and one about an anything whatsoever except for myself. Alas, the mystery continues 

extrovert

There's nothing I love more than partying and phonecalls and talking. However my family pushed me into an introvert life so I've been heartbreakingly lonely forever. I cry about it all the time. The other things and the numbers of suicide attempts I'll talk about later

weather

It has cooled down considerably here these last two days so thank goodness for tha. The nights are unbearably warm and I siesta through the hottest hours 

letters

I like writing people letters. Send me your address and I'll write you a letter. Old fashion style 

realisation

I have realised that my family dreamed about me since I was before born in a certain way and forced me to live that way in a certain persona to have their big dream. I even hate my name so now I'm going by Betz and Elle

facts

My mother brother and sister are so heinous they get me the wrong way around always have and refuse to even consider that I'm a different person to what they know that I cut them off. Expect whinging 

family and friends

My family drove me apart from you all so I'm trying to rectify that

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me for real

monty

Is doing very well. His Instagram is really taking off and he's getting back to being good at being in a restaurant even though he's a bit of a teenager right now 

cheering up. making therapy progress :)

careers

Communication, nft, and promotions. 

today

I have some visitors and we went for lunch and the portions were gigantic. Unfortunately they did not have a vegan option 

How's your day

How's your day anyone reading? I'm having a good day even though I went to the er last night for a panic attack. I really believed it was a heart attack! 

which means

I have indeed been hearing voices and obeying them for three years 

me today

Scripture 5

The thing about scripture is that it's canonical and catechisical in nature. Like walking in the park and drinking a can. Seeing the hirse races on TV and gambling. That's life. Like an exhibition of puppets I saw recently everyone has an ugly side despite anything. If you embrace it you're a complete person. 

insanity was actually bad prayer advice

Forget about it, no one even comments. Another failed attempt to engage 

today's day

Very ms friendly at the amazing les abbatoirs art museum with my new insoles and I think monty enjoyed doggy day care yet again 

truth for today

Is something called what is life even being without a dog or a creature to care for. 

good morning how do you do

also

Definitely not married never have been 

the past my whole life

Actually had a lot of God etc involvement that turned out to be traumatising etc so Iam not the messiah and I do apologise for my behaviour and you don't even want to be knowing what they were doing which I was actually unaware of 

life

Is a series of somesaults, in a nutshell. 

stress levels

Have indeed been at an all time high burning out and searching for a new career before I run out of benevits but I have indeed been successful in that regard and intend to be buying a home here in Toulouse very soonly indeedly

face update

how are you doing liz

I am not doing too badly. I did indeed get sectioned recently for being a tad aggressive towards mum and dad but it's just an ms symptom 🤷🏻and no fear from it any longer due to a very good team giving me medication and psychiatry here in Toulouse. There's also a ms specialist department here in Toulouse so I'm registered there 😊😁🤩💫