This is me...

 I do operate the switch board, maybe for earth but maybe even beyond. It's a complex machine but alot of it is about who should listen to who? The postman thinks lunch breaks are sacred so he should be listened to by the construction worker. The graffiti artist thinks countercool thoughts omand does a spray paint revolution so the business person should listen to them. Other switchboard thoughts relate to society, it should have careful ears and caring hands. Religion just needs an open mind and a happy heart.  So i pull the levers and out pops "new age, new idea"! 

 is a punk style involving reappropriation of mainstream feminine concepts. 

Being in france really is a joy, being around monty so much and seeing him growing up is a delight and spending some time alone has really helped me understand myself, my thoughts and my direction. Mainly I'm currently partaking of a beer either in the bar or on a bench. This is my personal invented ritual for unwinding and celebration. The first part of celebration was tears to understand what I have been up against and how people have been suffering. The next part was joy and laughter about myself, currently it's a certain peace with "i did it already". So i either lie down to think or take a can for a walk to procesd. It's also a little treat for myself (I really like beer!) to help with the defeated feeling from my ill health. 

Name : Elle Origin : beyond the stars Occupation : full time leisure pursuits /lord of the village Hobbies : chatting and dreaming

I'm kind of constantly wondering "could this self who I sense myself to be really be me?" as well as things about my life such as "doing nothing feels right but for how long?" I'm questioning my very experience, as such to a degree of the ancient Greek philosophers, they wondered if life is a dream with no real characters but oneself. I wonder who is really here around me based on my experience, I grapple with my faith too. I confront myself and like what I then choose, everything was just bits and pieces before. 

I used to really enjoy work but I can't work anymore because the voice in my head is very demanding of attention and is rarely practical enough for me to focus on anything like a career except as a hobby (I have a business and still write papers).