La vie en rose....

It's a purity movement designed to enhance good type options and inhibit bad style thinking. Everything just feeds into that concept. If no one ever did it before it IS because they're stupid, loud and aggressive.  Reality is a shambles and people are a disaster zone. That's the message. How it was ever allowed to be like that is beyond me. God should not have begun it he should have thought more. Now we're all stuck knowing anyone EVER chose linoleum over tiles. Or even carpet. Plastic is a planets suicide note. It could have been different because the basic way of solving the problem is... Good people, bad people.... Irrelevant, the gods help people decide. So it's raw people, finished people. Just bake them in love and tenderness. 

I am alone. So alone. And they took my everything away, everyone did it. It was a cursed life. Whatever anyone says. What does it even mean that I have to say that? "it was terrible please believe me", met with silence and scorn and brain chains. The agony does not abate. No one has ever loved me, known me or held me. And they forced an act on me so I can't even breathe. It's a waste of time to bother or care and I did my part so I should be ALLOWED to choose new lives. Even that is taken from me. I did everyone's steps, I trusted, I acted in faith. To zero outcome for myself. I was so brainwashed at the same time. 

Everyone I ever met in this system raped me, I am scourged and barbed throughout myself. No one listened to me so no one cared, that's a fact don't deny it. If anyone wants a happy ever after it means I am to be free of the herd to be one of the herd. This IS my big dream. I WILL be an accountant or dissolve with the effort to get that experience. I am shocked and appalled by everyone for their terrible behaviour towards me. Over time it has all accrued and I cannot survive any longer unless I finally really get heard. Snow rabbits, that's my spirit animal. I never even knew that. Some people suffer to help others and I suffered to just even be. I've never even been myself, so now I'm dropping the act. It's essentially a short moment to test the wiring, I'll die (happily, waiting for renewal) or continue as I know myself to be, which is different wildly and vastly from everyone's ever understanding. If you care, listen now. I actually don't care abou...

All the sycophants are winning and I'm starting life over as new. It just doesn't work, no one listened.