C'est moi...

 I experience change, a shifting of vital forces submerging me in darkness. What does it mean? Just a few more sleeps until happy ever after.

 Everyone is overreacting. How are we going to get to the next level with so many blown brains? This is the crystal window. Be at peace, swallow a whole egg. Get on all fours and start howling. Ding dong the witch is dead! Who are we? Everyone! What can we do? Everything! Get those mustard spoons out of the cupboard. (!).

 All of life is a messed up skit routine. "joke"! Results in tears. "death"! Results in hope. Who are we? The climate deniers, the tree destroyers and the clergy of anarchical metaculture. 

 I have seen monster thoughts occuring and they're very frightening. Rather than try to slay those monsters, I actually converted them to useless machines. I think they deserved it. Monster thoughts are like "eat eat fill belly", or "rape rape nice feeling". So, who says I'm not brave? 

 I actually do crave it, how am I supposed to ever get over all of that? I actually expect it will occur if this is a continuous vision. So don't get used to having me around. Next time around, starting from now, simple and basic.  The Ohuí will lock herself away and figure out how to earn a living. Then you'll see me at the red carpet because, why not. I would Rather be in the void than this dream. I actually don't know my past, I was just guessing. How could it not be anything except incompatible? I also hate the way I look, doing the mission (unconsciously so can't even get any appropriate praise) destroyed all my dreams. And myself. Whatever is coming I'm just going to try and prepare myself with surely push ups or a thought. The thought would be... Anything can happen to anyone for any reason. Or even no reason. Take it by the reins. 

 I actually haven't really thought any thoughts in ages. I try to ignore what's going on. Luckily I'm now a new person because no one wanted my idea. No one even asked me about it. So call me Beth and expect not a lot. At least that's a relief.  If I could say one thing about my experience it would be waste of time. At least now it doesn't feel like torture. So this cycle was being a genius, being ignored and destroyed, being a hero and denied existing, now brand new. If you're wondering what did I do it was basically zero.