my unique bubble gum life.

I live quietly in my own opinion, I tend to make a splash with things like science papers when I put some effort in. Then it goes back to simmering away nicely. In my life currently, I spend alot of quality time with my dog and my family, the reason being I am shaken by the creeping realisation that my ideas consume me. So I am actually unemployable and would always need to be able to rely on my ideas themselves for a livelihood (writing or artwork). I'm capable (on a good day) of very high level functioning but I lose focus and go back to my main thread which is really philosophy, despite no formal philosophy training. So it's actually a struggle to make my points. I also spend a lot of time praying (it's even evolved into casual chat) because I struggle with my obsession. I give myself a break by going out for a beer or a cofffee or a red bull, ideally in the open air. At the moment this is what I'm spending most of my time on because I have to be firm about not indulging my obsession but instead writing everything I have already thought of onto paper. Otherwise I might go off the rails as i have before.

The obsession is worthwhile however because it relates to a philosophy of life which could really benefit people (think of carl marx living in a mud hut on pocket money from a friend to write the communist manifesto!).