This is me...

 means body hair and no affectation while speaking. It means letting things slide as nature intends (typically eroding) full of vigour about building it brand new (nature is also full of growth and life). It means an ease about connecting, it's inbuilt into our very natural framework to be achieving. 

I've always been unhappy and frightened being the person I was forces to be. I've never even been myself. I've always been raised the way a machine would be programmed. No matter how serious my choices no one respected me. Now I'm faced with eternity, a better prospect as being after considerable prayer but little practice. So I'll just carry on as my own messaage, "if no one wants the tiger the tiger eats the day". I am wanting to be serious and almost really desiring to be violent. Even if that means tearing society apart with cosmic jokes. Society has a lot to be learning. Everything is badly designed.  What would I do? There's still so much "as standard" : advocating, remaking, inspiring, campaigning. Then... After that.... I would have a vegetable garden and make sculptures. Work with my hands. Maybe even dabble in building and design. I'd do experiments and simulations about lifeology and live a peaceful and lively life. I'd be ...

I've just come back from a swim and coffee with mum, this heatwave is intense! 

(word borrowed from cloud atlas), still experiencing consumerism and the financial and corporate ladders destined to stage a revolution by writing the somni stories...  Someday! https://cloudatlas.fandom.com/wiki/Sonmi-451  https://cloudatlas.fandom.com/wiki/Sonmi-451