my life and the catastrophe it has become

 my whole life i have trid to be a better person; nicer, friendlier, more outgoing, honest, helpful. AND I tried to chnage the world. so why am i perpetually alone with my thoughts and disggraced and abandoned. why is no one even sending a how are you tet that has any meaning. maybe i just havent known how to answer "how are you", ill try. that might be my final hoope.