my destiny

I always thought I had a big destiny. At school it seemed like maths, a famous mathemacian maybe. Then it seemed like physics, maybe the next Einstein. Then nanotechnology really threw me and actually during nanotechnology I thought I'd be a famous author like Dylan Thomas. During artschool I thought next picasso. It all seemed to point those ways. During law maybe I thought nothing of the sort. In a way it was nice to be free of the destiny feeling.

Recently with my religious experiences, I am told my destiny was always being some kind of critical - to- creation person. But that doesn't feel like a destiny, more like a duty for just being who I am.

So in all my destiny types I had huge success until career level then what I was doing I discovered no one was working on! No opportunity to take it further. Maybe my real destiny is all those things bundled together.

Obviously a religious destiny or calling is a bigger destiny. But I find it hard and stressful, everything else felt quite natural. Maybe the challenge is the clue to the relevance and maybe it's the furthest down any path I've ever really gone!

Furthermore the way I operate in my holy destiny kind of is everything combined.