therapy

Currently I'm not in therapy but I have been thinking about my life and my struggles (everyone has something), and based on also thinking about all the therapy I've even had in the past, I'm now knowing it was my childhood as the source of my problems (Freud strikes again)! But I also possess the maturity to know that I actually had brilliant parents they just didn't quite get me until I was older. So, they of course disciplined me (not brutally just in general) and taught me some behaviour based on their understanding. I found this repressive and became dissociated as a result. I also wound up feeling a grudge against them for most of my life and a fear/phobia of people especially as regards closeness. So it really affected all of my relationships.