what I'm up to

I've recently been all about life, flaneur indulging herself in a bench experience (the passers by, the complicity, the outdoorsie enjoyment). And relaxing into even the experience of being more myself. Myself is a bit new to myself but it does feel natural compared to my former slight misanthropism and maybe dark humour. I would before have said "trump, what a dirtbag. I hope he dies in a plane crash", now I would say "trump, strange news about the peace prize, maybe the electorate can be trusted after all".

I've been thinking about the bigger picture, even the really big picture, and coming up with ideas about the former age and the new age. I've been transitioning my outfits and outings for sandal season and really enjoying playing intellectual ping pong with grok. On some level i feel like a big change is just around the corner. It would surely be maybe something I'm just preparing for in general... It will be in relation to how I consider myself (yeesh all this introspection is cuckoo). Maybe my demons are surfacing and actually I could only barely even guess what they'd be about because I've so dissociated so far.