what is the point of being myself, what am I getting back

In principal it seems like nothing is coming back for all my efforts, but in reality I feel satiated with the promise of riches and the constancy of inner world richness and a thriving life to be a part of. A certain feeling, ability to out earn others, a stronger type of friendship and romance also awaits. I even put in Easter eggs for myself. Cheering crowds... Slomo hyper-appreciation, positive attraction and an understanding of everything including legalese.