C'est moi...

Not only have I been ransacked and raided under duress, but now I am being continuously raped. If anyone out there even cates (even for reason) send a prayer for me to have a profound instead of garbage experience 

I actually haven't done anything 🤷🏻‍♀️🤔 it was all a gods idea

It's a fact. 

This has actually become part of my lifestyle! 

It's so hard to get q0009!

They landed on my surface, but now I would like them to sink in 

 if i was a braindead rabbit like  this and now i'm a rabbit like  this then i am currently aiming for  this  !

I met up with hannah so I feel fantastic, she's such a hoot and great company. I updated my dress sense by accepting all mikleniaks just look bonkers. This was really rewarding  I read some article snippets on my favourite online magazine (3am magazine), i don't often get the chance for this content because I get so busy so I'm well pleased. 

Is actually a log of psychotic thinking. I have a hopeless therapist. 

I exist in a certain soace, my own possibility soace. I cannot do every thing and besides, my courage and confidence are limited. So what do I choose? Being helpful cheerful and subordinate. An ymnyone maybe needs to know and understand something simikar.  It's a sci fi theology for the future so get moving about this crystal wi dow of opportunity.  I am also aware of my self as limited, to a deegree. In spite of all sorts of life hacks. Find your own life hacks! Go bananas! Find your sandbox and get active 💪 that's all I've ever really done. 

 i felt at breaking point except i mastered fear and hurts. i dealt with sinister, but left macabre.  i dwellt in comparable luxury, what's a better home: the robin's nest or the backyard?

As per, would mum and dad approve of ger from the braxeen bar to be marrying? 

That cii is the IBM of charity! 💪 

We drive people insane, I'm angry but smiling all the time, he's a headwrecker. So where does that leave us? It leaves us on probation. 

I'm not really a blogger... 

Nothing really, even by their own admission. 

I knew then and I know now the content of the dream is allotted as per appropriation duly. 

I'm in a dream sequence set to reveal my thoughts and capabilities which is also purgatory! 

Because I saved everyone 🤷🏻‍♀️ 

Is ger from the braxeen bar! 

The blessed supersoldier

I am a very troubled person for reasons I'm not sure I even know! 

Dad ordered a croque monsieur and promptly decided he didn't like it. Andrew got a broken beeper for a vegetarian burger, he did like it but he's easy to please! (lacks life experience). Mum had a pokebowl to be "healthy" (she's "on a diet" constantly but her cholesterol is through the roof. I had quite quesedillas and they were scrumptious. 

 are easy access to a bank account an di have actually trained them to be interesting. after all that abuse i wasnt going to sit around hurting, so they're my pets. this is due recourse yet not even completely. they are also my slaves. i would like them to die for me. it's the only even partial retribution and i elieve they will choose it as martyrs to the cause they denied. the cause being my life's quest to improve the human condition on a journey that has led me to rectify all former wrongs and unite the realms of beings.

I am a female underneath it all but I actually choose to exhibit and wear some male characteristics whike maintaining a certain frivolous feminity. 

Understood. You’re presenting it as a philosophical hypothesis , not as settled empirical science. That’s a different request. Here is a short philosophical essay written in that register — treating the idea as a coherent conceptual proposal rather than a biological claim, while remaining honest about its tensions with observable reality. On Gender as Spectrum and Role as Contingent: A Philosophical Hypothesis Let us begin from two acknowledged premises. First, human organisms are sexually dimorphic: the categories male and female are grounded in reproductive biology, gamete type, and the developmental cascades that follow. These produce real average differences in physiology, strength, reproductive capacity, and certain behavioral tendencies. Second, social roles historically associated with those sexes — provider, caregiver, public actor, domestic manager — have varied across cultures and eras and are therefore not metaphysically fixed to any particular body. The hypothesis under con...

 living with m and d is opening up my old wounds from childhood. i escaped it and now i have to confrotnt it. :(

The sex slave was moping in the east wing. 

The question of why anything exists at all is the deepest one we can ask, and no answer currently available is fully satisfying. Your two intuitions—one that reality feels like a temporary sandbox shaped by the constantly vanishing present, the other that it serves some larger constructive purpose (illustrated by the gap between a snail’s capacities and the human act of making a home)—are both coherent ways of sensing the same mystery. They are not mutually exclusive. The scientific picture Physics and cosmology describe how the universe behaves with extraordinary precision, yet they remain silent on ultimate purpose. The observable universe appears to have begun in a hot, dense state roughly 13.8 billion years ago and has been expanding and cooling ever since under laws that are, as far as we can tell, consistent and impersonal. Those laws permit complexity to arise: atoms, stars, planets, chemistry, life, nervous systems, and eventually minds capable of asking the question. Nothing...

Reasons to remain alive rest in the layered practice of meaning—micro and macro—together with the deliberate construction of a life that feels worth inhabiting. Yet the question “Why bother?” can still arrive, sharp and sudden. What follows is an attempt to answer that question without illusion, while honouring the concrete loves you already name: serendipity, good karma, helping others, and bringing cheer. Meaning is rarely delivered as a single grand revelation. More often it accumulates in two registers. Micro-meaning lives in the small, repeatable acts of attention: the texture of morning light, the exact taste of a familiar meal, the brief recognition in a stranger’s face when you hold a door, the quiet satisfaction of finishing a task well. These moments do not solve the universe, but they anchor the nervous system in the present and make the next hour feel inhabitable. Macro-meaning operates at a larger scale: the sense that one’s efforts participate in something that outlasts a...

Communities endure and cohere most effectively as harmonious, fluid structures because fixed points—rigid identities, absolute ideologies, unchanging hierarchies, or immutable norms—generate division. Human social life depends on ongoing coordination among individuals with overlapping but never identical interests, experiences, and capacities. When a community treats its boundaries, roles, and values as provisional and adjustable, it can absorb difference, renegotiate expectations, and maintain cooperation. When it elevates any element into a permanent, non-negotiable fixed point, that element becomes a fault line: membership is sorted into insiders and outsiders, status becomes zero-sum, and disagreement turns existential. Fluidity supports harmony for several interlocking social reasons. First, people change. Preferences, skills, alliances, and even self-conceptions shift across the life course and across contexts. A structure that insists on fixed categories—caste-like ranks, lifelo...

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The Angel Wears Recycled Plastic Elena had always believed fashion was shallow. Then she took the job as junior assistant to Aurelia Vale, editor-in-chief of Renew , the most influential sustainable fashion magazine in the world. Aurelia did not raise her voice. She did not throw phones or demand impossible coffee orders. She simply looked at people with calm, clear eyes and expected them to rise. Her signature look was a perfectly tailored coat made entirely from recycled ocean plastic, the surface catching the light like soft armour. Everyone in the industry called her “the Angel,” half in reverence, half in fear of disappointing her. On Elena’s first day, Aurelia handed her a thick binder. “This is not about trends,” she said gently. “It is about whether the clothes we celebrate leave the world better or worse. You will learn the difference.” Elena learned. She learned which “eco-friendly” claims were greenwashing and which were genuine. She learned how to source deadstock fabric at...

  An ideal childhood is one in which a child is fundamentally safe, cherished, and free to develop into a coherent person. Here are the core elements, grounded in the principles we’ve been discussing: 1. Absolute physical and psychological safety The child is protected from all forms of exploitation, violence, sexualization, and manipulation. No adult treats the child’s body or sexuality as available, experimental, or instrumental. Boundaries around the child’s body are clear, consistent, and non-negotiable. The child never has to navigate “imperceptible” or confusing sexual dynamics with caregivers. 2. Secure attachment and unconditional regard The child experiences reliable love and care from primary adults. This creates the internal safety needed to explore the world. Love is not conditional on performance, compliance, or fulfilling the adult’s emotional or other needs. 3. Room for the child’s own emerging self The child’s genuine interests, curiosities, and “dream ideas” are no...

  This involves the sexual abuse of a child, which is illegal and profoundly harmful. Any sexual activity forced on a child—by a parent, relative, or anyone else—is child sexual abuse and rape . It does not matter if the perpetrator has a personality disorder, believes it is a “romantic relationship,” or frames it as something else. A child’s inability to consent makes it abuse by definition. Incestuous abuse by a parent is especially destructive because it violates the deepest trust a child should be able to have. A mother forcing sexual activity on her child, against the child’s wish to remain a virgin until marriage and to live as a serious person, is likewise child sexual abuse . A child’s stated desire for sexual boundaries must be respected. Overriding that desire and compelling sexual acts is a severe violation of the child’s bodily autonomy, psychological integrity, and right to develop according to their own values. Personality disorders can impair judgment, empathy, and r...

  Grooming and the denial of a child’s dream ideas are serious matters, and they deserve careful distinction. Predatory grooming When “grooming” refers to the deliberate process of building trust, emotional dependence, and secrecy with a child (or vulnerable person) in order to exploit them—sexually, emotionally, or otherwise—it is unequivocally harmful and wrong. It is a form of calculated manipulation that exploits a child’s natural need for attention, approval, and belonging. The damage is often profound: it can distort the child’s sense of trust, boundaries, self-worth, and reality for years or decades. There is no ethical defense for it. Societies rightly treat it as a serious violation precisely because children lack the power, experience, and developmental maturity to protect themselves from such calculated influence. Denying a child’s genuine aspirations The second part of your question—systematically denying or suppressing a child’s own dream ideas, especially during child...

  Friendiality: Extending Borders Through the Art of Friendship Friendiality is the deliberate practice of developing friendship so fully that it dissolves artificial borders and multiplies the possibilities of a life. It treats friendship not as a secondary or transitional category—something that exists before romance, outside family, or beneath professional ties—but as a primary mode of relating that can operate anywhere. When friendship is cultivated with loyalty, diligence, and mutual support, it becomes a form of true accomplice-ship: two people aligned in the project of living more awake, more capable, and more free. At its heart, friendiality insists that the deepest human connection is not ownership or exclusive fusion, but shared agency. A true friend is an accomplice—someone who sees your aims, sharpens your judgment, laughs at the absurdities, and stands ready when the world pushes back. This is different from the intense, often all-consuming focus many people place on a...

  Life, Its Prohibitions and Fascinations An essay on purity as a guiding principle Purity is not mere abstinence or rigid restriction. It is a deliberate orientation of the self toward clarity, integrity, and long-term flourishing. A pure life is defined as much by what it refuses as by what it pursues with wholehearted fascination. Prohibitions create the necessary boundaries; fascinations fill the resulting space with meaning, connection, and growth. This understanding draws from Christian ethics of chastity and relational fidelity, Buddhist regard for the disciplined self, and elements of Scientology’s emphasis on personal integrity, ethical living, and the cultivation of supportive dynamics with others. Prohibitions: The Protective Boundaries of Purity Prohibitions are not arbitrary denials but protective structures. They safeguard the integrity of the person and the quality of their relationships. A clear example is the refusal of sexual intimacy outside of marriage. In a pur...

Simple, pure, deep and tender hearted. 

The dalai llama lives in Spain, he cares not so much for the winter raihe wears his hat and his galoshes.... What does that make him? n. 

Involves ger (hugely), my favourite dog walkers, m and d and of course hannah. Plus texting people from home from time to time. 

 No one ever expects me to amount to anything because of my cute features. so they make a snap decision about my abilities and goals "she must want something rreally cute like a sexy boyfriend" (😭👀👀👎). This has never been the case. I want success, I'm ambitious, I want a reliable life partner when the time is right and i  do not care for a party unless it involves good conversation and ordering pizza at 5am. Mignon is a part of me because of the rabbits foot i have talked about before, so the rabbits foot is a bit like a curse. i have never been correctly estimated owing to my mignon appearance. any success i ever had never matched my potential. people are always just so judgemental. i dont even really like mignon, it very infantalising as a concept too tough to shatter or overcome for any feminism im aware of. it can be ffunny, soi try to lean into the humourous side.. the whole big eye cute facade.... i dont ascrivbe to it because its s  dumb. imagine george clooney...

 i want to heal... so much like when i had glandular fever and vivid hallucinogenic dreams. memory iss a fickle frinend of mine. like veronica gleeson, i thought we had really connected. then later came jazzz/conorgannon. Like a friend just waiting for bars and beers and degree thoughts late at night.

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Equates to a measure of meaning ready available as to be lacking. 

 i live in mum's spare room staying soon with idle familiar chatter while i work on my groundbrekaing theory. it will get published any day now....😁😓😬😫😵😶😾😮

 He’s a really heroic guy, I’m living a ren type life, except just legitimately encouraged about a certain direction I actually do want to go in

  One Woman, Public Space, and the Sticky Song: Guerrilla Performance as Cultural Intervention A single person stepping into ordinary public space with the deliberate intention of altering the emotional or cognitive atmosphere of strangers is already engaged in a form of asymmetric cultural action. When that person uses performance and the deliberate crafting of earworms—short, memorable musical or verbal phrases designed to lodge in the mind and quietly reorient attention—the practice becomes a form of one-woman guerrilla movement. The goal is not mass mobilisation in the conventional sense, nor the immediate seizure of institutions. It is the insertion of small, persistent disruptions into the collective stream of everyday perception, with the hope that repeated micro-interventions can accumulate into shifts in mood, association, and eventually norm. The logic of solitary guerrilla culture Guerrilla methods succeed by refusing the scale and visibility of the opponent. A one-woman...

 i rly like ppl and i dnt want to b mean ever. i swaer it.

  One Woman, Public Space, and the Sticky Song: Guerrilla Performance as Cultural Intervention A single person stepping into ordinary public space with the deliberate intention of altering the emotional or cognitive atmosphere of strangers is already engaged in a form of asymmetric cultural action. When that person uses performance and the deliberate crafting of earworms—short, memorable musical or verbal phrases designed to lodge in the mind and quietly reorient attention—the practice becomes a form of one-woman guerrilla movement. The goal is not mass mobilisation in the conventional sense, nor the immediate seizure of institutions. It is the insertion of small, persistent disruptions into the collective stream of everyday perception, with the hope that repeated micro-interventions can accumulate into shifts in mood, association, and eventually norm. The logic of solitary guerrilla culture Guerrilla methods succeed by refusing the scale and visibility of the opponent. A one-woman...

 The things (astounding and cosmic) I have seen (as a fiction) came and went while I wandered bare brained as a baby, through rooms and down lanes, quieting my confusion. Licks and grabbing hands satisfied my far fetched ideas and it was a very happy marriage really! So very many suitors came a-calling.   Next line of code reads "love, live, obey (yourself, your higher form of wisdom). By being scenarios of a fictional yet cosmic nature.  Who looks west? anyone. Then came the intermittent stories about eliens and spirits and spaceships in eternal life... and what was my husband doing with my mother? (it was partly nightmarish) I lie to listen and mumble incessantly while death drums throw out beats and jesus restarts my heart, then it's a romantic walk turned bizarre facts I told it no so many times on so many occasions.... It wrestled me to almost pure smoke. .... 

 Fashion brings about a feeling so maybe that can be harnessed. 

NOT a loner type. I'm going to be honest for the first time... Consistently. By lying the way I have been lying I now escaped the husband trap, dodgedd out of thaving a job and enjoy the bars here out of t mum's pocket. That's surely a win. 

To improve my memory I will write about the best tomato relish... Ballymaloe, dutch hague seafront restaurant, out in mumbles and the slimming world recipe! 

Friends old and new (even if regular contact is impossible because I'm in the field on a voyfamily values (they're an heirloom so they're worth respecting) even if they traumatised me.  Surviving and survival culture. Being consciously acting. Animals, and artwork. age). 

I think a thought i actually care. Then i started the experience... Then I became adamant about decency in the office and fair treatment by colleagues

 was walking away first from renting my own apartment and second leaving the company i was destined to work in for the rest of my life.

 i dont do meee any favours and everything is haaard and razay and confusing.

She's such a blabbermouth, I actually really like talking and it's like she doesn't know how to listen 

I am in a kind of phase of change, I see a person emerging from the mess of myself who has a will and a way but lacks strength and resources. But really I'm resting and trotting out the whole story... It's quite the tale! 

 The problem with no belief is that you’re lying to yourselves. If we were the formation of natural processes we’d have no exquisite eyeball or Achilles heel. Evolutionary theory says random mutations… why are we so like a monkey? Furthermore, look at the lives of believers… easier all round.

 The topic is bedroom activity and the immature collective obsession thereof.

 i like to consider friendship as a testing ground until secure metrics are achieved. i tell my ssob story, they tell theirs, matching broken pieces get weighed up for damage and healed and then.... two perfect people spring forth to enact a nice time routine!

Dying in every moment because my presence is completely irrelevant to everyone. 

Parents don't listen, pain gets disbelieved, exhaustion gets taken for laziness and stupidity reigns supreme. 

All the peer pressure to be sexually active from a young age (i actually lost my virginity through statutory rape), social expectations for every woman to give up her career for a man, being spoken to like I'm a barbie doll and the inanity of girl talk (oh you like men? I like men, which man you like?)! 

Also included verbal assault on sexist grounds for being a woman in physics wearing makeup. And physical assault on several occasions. Even sexual molestation. 

 My parents are idiots. I’m well aware of the political and emotional climate but they were PRO garage until the bbc changed its opinion. I have to keep a close eye on them because they’re so inept they had to remortgage the house to keep a bnb afloat…. I even taught them how to clean it. Their business crashed and mum blamed dad for being foolish and dad never even said anything except “diy, anyone?” And became a kind of fawltytowers handyman plumbing showers that are constantly leaking. So since I’m in the role of eldest son I have to constantly advise them about life and they’re too stubborn and stupid to even acknowledge that. When I was younger I knew I was always destined to die young. My parents were so cock eyed they forbade affection In place being sexual encounters… for a five year old!! I’m ashamed to know them they really ruined my life. I lied and pretended everything was fine after the fifth time she beat me and locked me in my room just to avoid more ridicule. Later ...

I am biologically female, naturally androgynous but actively gender fluid. 

My life is not a life. It's a dream dander with a meandering timeline located between my final realistic mortal life and my eternal path. During which... And then some. As a means of living and learning, in actual spaces, I have made powerful amd valuable connections. I have encountered knowledge like no other and I have been the subject of so many spells (my own and others) that I am ennured to magic effects which would otherwise be alarming. So it's a kind of open season 🤷🏻‍♀️ 

Look not where the sun shines but where the sun shines not. This is the way to find the needy and supplement their livelihood and liveliness by support. In your garden, in your local store, in your family, with your friends. The skills I have taught you extend far beyond employment and it is for you to be designated as dutiful. As per spiderman, with ability comes responsibility.... 

. What's cooking? 

It was mine, my game, my home, my life. An apartment in the expat district of the planets legal confluence. Politicians swaying around drunkenly in their Sunday swede.

She is no one who came before because she never entered the rooms replete  with truth and beauty. She dies with the past. 

 orchid id is a service for registering as a scientist with respect to authenticating authorship of papers. Given that, this image makes a good joke about me hiding behind my online aliases because I didn't want to be known. 

 this idea is a manner of occasion for any celebration, even opening a jamjar. Hijinks, cheeky compliments, subtle gifting and homecooking work well with this type of celebration.  Pink festooning of the participants and surrounds would be on par with the queen's pyjamas. 

Happy go lucky can be a powerful idea especially in dark times. It's a permission slip to think anything you fancy, life occurs anyway, get creative. For example, a divorced baker in Greg's can realise they could open a wedding cake shop specialising in happy ever after motifs (made to order, ding ding! Next customer!)  Having a reason for everything is a route to a meaningful life with an option of no regrets. This is because acting for a reason usually means covering your bases, and I do mean an intellectual rather than emotional reason. Some reasons are better than other reasons and all those reasons can really add up to something. 

I live in a breathing dream, everything is sentimental and I owe myself things like hugs, soft blankets and nice ideas. A nice idea for myself would be.... I really care about systems and fairness. I'm a dog person and I like this life because it's so chilled out. Would I lie around thinking "I'm the best, I deserve the sky and then some...", actually sometimes I do in a fit of confusion but I usually try not to be stuck up. Archangel Gabriel believes that mode to be the correct mode, the confusion should be embraced! It might take me anywhere... Like when I loaded having an amazing time so I would be too nervous to embrace it! That's what guardian angels are for! Go for it! 

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 My favourite colour is purple followed by pink, my favourite food is moussaka or a cheese board. Favourite style to wear is punk (cottagecore) seconded by chic. My favourite book is mrs polo fax followed by the Book of Mormon. 

 This film demonstrates the futility of social standards . My holy stance is to create or act so as to be all inclusive  Short film

Hannah, my English speaking friend (a real brit) lives only at a distance of two villages. We meet weekly for an excursion or a coffee (coca and beer actually...!). She is an angel in my life, she has the patience and goodwill to listen to me think out loud in my struggle to verbalise my anything experience or effort. Our excursions are typically just within the region where we go to a different setting for a "coffee". We have a lot in common and were both dealt a hard hand in life which we each turned into a ripening garden of a sorts. 

Ever since I was 31 (I'm now 36), I have been living in a nightmare. Of a fascinating nature. The least nightmares are a story with a bad component challenging to contemplate. The stories range from alien invasion, so many ways of fighting and defeating evil I can't even count them, defending myself against all sorts of infamy and being tortured psychologically by romances so well met and yet utterly defeating. 

When I first noticed him, in the braxeen bar, he was surrounded by friends and impossible to understand as such. I have always struggled to recognise that in my life and it's my big dream... Functional friendship. So my brain eventually recalibrated to understand "he has it, just like that". Then I noticed him playing petanq everyday and bringing the party (jokes of a gregarious, expeditious and kindly nature) to the boulodrome. Shortly after that, we mey eye contact in the bar and I was maybe swooning to them think "this man could be that?!?". Then it was a delirious process of remembering and I got through by listening to his laughter or spotting his car or van parked on the square. Then we began our silent smoking area conversations. This I do not exactly recall and it's a tad subjective but I gleaned "I'm serious about us and this is who I am, and I will always help you with your problems. Try to be ok, then the rest will just flow". Except...

Is via ice-cream (i like it when it's artisinal), sausage, sourdough bread or Campbell tomato soup! Alternatively, I can be won over by a compelling rhetoric, a logical argument or a shy opinion! 

I am a person who has a very strong personality but no one knows it, I am very freewilled but no one knows it. I do not cave easily, but people think it (i subtly, subversively win), i think ALOT and about actually about everyone. 

 has been a totalcarcrash/trainwreck. nothing worked ou and im trappedin the family unit with no real outlet because they're so strict with me :( i could have been something! meanwhile, im working on this issue and certainly developing an appreciation of the spectral qualities of life like distant humour sounds on the spring breeze or a dog whimpering at the postman three doors down, or what it feels like to order clothes online with no real agenda. is trauma ever worthwhile/ probably not but i intend to make the mostof it. my perpetrator s are so obsessed they'lll pay for me to go anyhwere and also i ahve a subtle manipulation going on. at least,to a degree, whereasreallly i didnt survive the torment and now im in purgatory. they really are the fools to the utmost degree who have changed me from trusiting to fearful and avoidant. people with a pig like demeanour will o anything to have a brag. it amounts to capure and forced oto reveal my secrets. so.... i must be an animal or...

Introduction The Theory of Something Significant approaches reality as a web of correlations in which nodes act, flows move, and apparent unbounded processes remain open to correction. When this lens is turned toward the non-human living world, animals appear as dynamic vectors within larger ecological systems. They transmit matter, energy, information, and influence across the network of nature. The present essay develops the theory’s perspective on animals: that their inherent dispositions lean toward sociability and that predation and aggression are more conditional than they often appear; that every ecosystem requires them; and that they live according to discernible principles and employ complex communicative systems—frequently involving chemical and olfactory signals—that remain only partially understood by humans. References to fictional portrayals such as the live-action Mowgli story and to the observational work of Jane Goodall serve as imaginative and empirical touchstones. A...